the morning and this is what was running through my mind for most of
the night.. or morning lol i don't know i feel like and idiot but i
just had this feeling like i said, someone please tell me if this is
stupid... this is what i wrote down at 4 30 in the morning because so
many thoughts were running through my head i just felt like i had to
write it down somewhere
As of this very second I know what I want to do with my life and I
figured I should write it down before I loose all of these thoughts
from my head. I wanna do something with my life and what perfect time
but right now, im young (: theres still so many possibilitys yeah
going to partys cutting out on class and chilling with your friends
and going on face book instead of cleaning your room is fun, but you
know what would be even funner achieving your goals. I know I love
music, I know that's what I want to do. How do I know ? Everytime I
listen to a song I picture me on a stage singing it and every time I
watch some new teenager that go into the industry and become instantly
famous I get this insane jealous feeling and I just want it so bad,
more than anything in my life. Ive never felt that way before. In 8th
grade I took a general music class and we had to be taught to play the
guitar and everyone thought it was gay and I said the same but
secretly I couldn't wait . My teacher told me that I picked it up so
fast and he thought I played before and to this day I remember that
just because it makes me wanna do it so bad. I wanna do something
productive with my life ! I wanna be someone ! Ive never had this
feeling before, its like im upset but excited at the same time. I
remember once my mom was driving me to school one day and she was
telling me about when she went to go see a psycic and the psycic told
her that her kids need to believe in themselves and they could be
anything they want to be, and it made me cry…. Because this whole
time I new what I want to do I just don't know how to do it I
don't know how to start. I KNOWW I can do it I believe in myself I
just feel like I always say im gonna do something and never persuee it
and im scared this is gonna be one of those things I wanna give this
my allll I wanna achieve my dreams, instead of just sitting aroung
watching the days pass by I wanna do something with my life I wanna be
someone . Im just afraid people will take me as this huge joke, like
ohhhh haha sshe wants to be someone well who the f doesn't ?! but I
have this feeling like I know I can do like im suppose to do it and
ive never had that before or maybe I have it this whole time and I
just never igknolowged it. But who knows maybe one day I will look
back at this whole paragraph i wrote at 4 18 in the morning and think
wow I should've listened to myself, I should of tried . Or maybe I
will try (: and I will make it and ill look back at this and be like
wow i was so right (: And even If I don't ever achieve my goals
atleast I'll know that I tried and it wasn't just me being lazy that
stopped me. right ?
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